Without the Love of God

Without the love of God I would not be who I am today.
There was a time when all I saw was darkness and I thought there was no way out.
I cried.
For days, weeks, months, years, I cried for God to save me.
I wrote to Him, sang to Him, praised Him, obeyed Him!
Or so I thought I was…
It wasn’t until these past years that I realized God’s love for me.
It wasn’t until these past few months that I felt the actual manifestation of the Holy Spirit. I’ve felt Him pull me, guide me, and even call my name. It’s crazy we think it’s just a coincidence when things take a sudden turn in our favor when really it’s God’s spirit moving around us.
I can’t attribute any success or gained knowledge from my own power. I can only give God full and complete credit for pouring grace over my life. He has blessed me with the fire to seek Him. I want to know more. Once I felt a glimpse of His presence I knew there was nothing on earth EVEN CLOSE to how He made me feel.
Yes! God made me feel something. He blessed me with a tangible expression of love. I felt heat covering my body with a lifting and cooling effect. I could feel His spirit move from my fingers up into my shoulders spinning around as though to fill every corner of my being.
I’ve been going through a transformation process lately. I’m being pulled towards detoxing myself from worldly things. As I become closer in my relationship with God, I find it easier to let go of things that used to hold me down.

Freedom From My Thoughts

Some days are harder than others.

Some mornings bring frustrations from dreams the night before.

Some evenings bring memories, some nights bring pain.

It takes a while to let go of certain things.

It takes years to let go of certain people.

 

What I’ve noticed is these thoughts never seem to leave.

They come and go just to see if I’ll give in.

They come and torment just to see if I’ll respond.

But I won’t.

 

Thoughts only have as much power as you give them.

Pain only has as much power as you allow it to have.

I give all power to God and He continuously cleanses me from these thoughts, and from this pain.