Without the Love of God

Without the love of God I would not be who I am today.
There was a time when all I saw was darkness and I thought there was no way out.
I cried.
For days, weeks, months, years, I cried for God to save me.
I wrote to Him, sang to Him, praised Him, obeyed Him!
Or so I thought I was…
It wasn’t until these past years that I realized God’s love for me.
It wasn’t until these past few months that I felt the actual manifestation of the Holy Spirit. I’ve felt Him pull me, guide me, and even call my name. It’s crazy we think it’s just a coincidence when things take a sudden turn in our favor when really it’s God’s spirit moving around us.
I can’t attribute any success or gained knowledge from my own power. I can only give God full and complete credit for pouring grace over my life. He has blessed me with the fire to seek Him. I want to know more. Once I felt a glimpse of His presence I knew there was nothing on earth EVEN CLOSE to how He made me feel.
Yes! God made me feel something. He blessed me with a tangible expression of love. I felt heat covering my body with a lifting and cooling effect. I could feel His spirit move from my fingers up into my shoulders spinning around as though to fill every corner of my being.
I’ve been going through a transformation process lately. I’m being pulled towards detoxing myself from worldly things. As I become closer in my relationship with God, I find it easier to let go of things that used to hold me down.

In the moment

You are the arms I’ve always longed for

you are the comfort that I’ve craved

I got locked up in the moment

and had nothing left to say

You poured your heart out in your hands

and had the devil shake in fear

You told me things about the future

things I’ve really needed to hear

I’ve always longed for your affection

your gentle touch and healing hands

I really love you oh so much

I really hope you understand

A Million Miles Away

I hear you call my name

a million miles away

I see you in my dreams

your beauty captures me

I can’t let go of you

my heart is seeks your truth

When you’re all I see

your strength takes over me

 

I keep on falling for your love

I keep on running towards your love

I keep on reaching for your love

I can’t let go