Without the Love of God

Without the love of God I would not be who I am today.
There was a time when all I saw was darkness and I thought there was no way out.
I cried.
For days, weeks, months, years, I cried for God to save me.
I wrote to Him, sang to Him, praised Him, obeyed Him!
Or so I thought I was…
It wasn’t until these past years that I realized God’s love for me.
It wasn’t until these past few months that I felt the actual manifestation of the Holy Spirit. I’ve felt Him pull me, guide me, and even call my name. It’s crazy we think it’s just a coincidence when things take a sudden turn in our favor when really it’s God’s spirit moving around us.
I can’t attribute any success or gained knowledge from my own power. I can only give God full and complete credit for pouring grace over my life. He has blessed me with the fire to seek Him. I want to know more. Once I felt a glimpse of His presence I knew there was nothing on earth EVEN CLOSE to how He made me feel.
Yes! God made me feel something. He blessed me with a tangible expression of love. I felt heat covering my body with a lifting and cooling effect. I could feel His spirit move from my fingers up into my shoulders spinning around as though to fill every corner of my being.
I’ve been going through a transformation process lately. I’m being pulled towards detoxing myself from worldly things. As I become closer in my relationship with God, I find it easier to let go of things that used to hold me down.
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Your Love

Why can’t I breathe?

Why can’t I be more to you than I am?

More to you, than they see.

I wanna know, where does the time go?

All my love seems to leave me.

You left with no goodbye, I stay with no reply. I wait.

I sit here thinking why, you left me all alone in this place.

I’m all alone.

I feel so cold.

Won’t you breathe in me some hope?

I’m tired of lovin’ all wrong.

You said you’d teach me to love while you’re gone.

While you’re gone, I’m lost, I need your guidance now.

You seem so far I’m crying for your love now.

I need your love now.